Pregnancy-
Maddox was a
surprise, but you’d think that when I got pregnancy again right after his first
birthday it wouldn’t have been such a shock…well you’d be wrong. Very, very
wrong. Silly us, thinking that my being on a low-dose birth control and breastfeeding
would have been enough. Ha. Ha…. Ha.
Baby #2, or ‘Dos’,
as we affectionately call him or her, is due July 23rd. RIGHT smack dab in the middle of summer,
awesomesauce. I’m really not looking forward to being 9 months pregnant in the
middle of the summer, with an active toddler who loves going outside. Oh, did I mention that we will be moving in
June….OY!!
'Dos'
It’s weird,
although I’m sure pretty common, I don’t even feel pregnant. I mean yes, I have a belly and I feel the
baby move but it hasn’t really sunk in yet.
I’m so busy with Maddox, work, cleaning, planning the house that I feel
so guilty for not being as ‘in tune’ with this little nugget as I was with M. The
scariest part for me is that I’m starting my 3rd trimester and I
feel like D-day is YEARS away, when in reality, it’s just months.
Maybe it’s
because I’m more relaxed during this pregnancy, all the ‘stages’ are still
pretty fresh in my head so I’m not scouring the internet trying to find out if
every feeling is normal. Although at my 20 week ultrasound they did find a
white spot on the baby’s heart or an echogenic intracardiac
focus which they told us was an indicator of a chromosomal abnormality in the
baby (most likely Edwards’ or Downs syndrome). Needless to say we were pretty
shocked by this news. But after a long, long, long talk (and some research by
yours truly) we decided that we would forego any additional testing. If our
baby has either, so be it. We’ll still
love it to pieces. No one wants to hear that there might be something wrong
with their baby. And we also have our young age, no family history and no other
indicators working for us. Again, nothing is a guarantee but I have faith that
we will have the child we are meant to have.
20 weeks
Back to more positive thoughts…
It’s crazy to think that in a few short months we’ll
be adding to our family, forever changing our happy little dynamic. Will we
have another little meatball that looks just like his father? Or will Joe get the little girl he’s been
dreaming about? Ah, yes. Gender. We
never find out. For soooo many reasons: I
love surprises, it prevents us from being buried in baby clothes before the
baby is born, and I’m a HUGE procrastinator.
Although the biggest benefit of not finding out
gender didn’t even occur to me until I was at a baby shower (pregnant round #1)
and my friend who was having a little boy was constantly being told how Baby
Boy was going to ‘just like daddy’ For her ‘daddy’ was out of the picture so w ell
meaning party guests who weren’t privy to this info were just opening a painful
wound in a pregnant woman. I didn’t
realize until then how much I disliked people making plans for a baby before it’s
even here. They will be how they will be, they are little people and will have their
own personality and identity. Don’t write their life story before their life
begins.
That being said, we are really just hoping for ‘healthy’
at this point. Another little boy would be awesome; M would have a
playmate/scapegoat for life and we don’t have to buy any clothes really. At the
same time a girl would be wonderful considering how much Joe wants “a little
curly haired girl that looks just like my beautiful wife.” (He does say the right things from time to
time.)
Hello Gorgeous! What do you think? Boy or Girl?
Do I know? No. I have NO CLUE. This pregnancy has
been so different from the last; more morning sickness, more acne, less weight
gain, different (and healthier cravings). I’m not sure if it’s the fact that I’m in a
completely different place than I was when I was pregnant with M. In less than three years, I’ve gone from
single workin’ gal in my apartment to married with two kids buying a house.
27 weeks
It’s incredibly scary and I’m praying that little
dude will be able to handle all the changes too. I'm so very excited for this next child. But I'm also nervous for our happy family unit to change. I'm just going to cherish every moment we have left as a family of three.
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