Pregnancy, Dos Edition

Pregnancy-

Maddox was a surprise, but you’d think that when I got pregnancy again right after his first birthday it wouldn’t have been such a shock…well you’d be wrong. Very, very wrong. Silly us, thinking that my being on a low-dose birth control and breastfeeding would have been enough. Ha. Ha…. Ha.

Baby #2, or ‘Dos’, as we affectionately call him or her, is due July 23^rd.  RIGHT smack dab in the middle of summer, awesomesauce. I’m really not looking forward to being 9 months pregnant in the middle of the summer, with an active toddler who loves going outside.  Oh, did I mention that we will be moving in June….OY!!

'Dos'

It’s weird, although I’m sure pretty common, I don’t even feel pregnant.  I mean yes, I have a belly and I feel the baby move but it hasn’t really sunk in yet.  I’m so busy with Maddox, work, cleaning, planning the house that I feel so guilty for not being as ‘in tune’ with this little nugget as I was with M. The scariest part for me is that I’m starting my 3^rd trimester and I feel like D-day is YEARS away, when in reality, it’s just months.

Maybe it’s because I’m more relaxed during this pregnancy, all the ‘stages’ are still pretty fresh in my head so I’m not scouring the internet trying to find out if every feeling is normal. Although at my 20 week ultrasound they did find a white spot on the baby’s heart or an echogenic intracardiac focus which they told us was an indicator of a chromosomal abnormality in the baby (most likely Edwards’ or Downs syndrome). Needless to say we were pretty shocked by this news. But after a long, long, long talk (and some research by yours truly) we decided that we would forego any additional testing. If our baby has either, so be it.  We’ll still love it to pieces. No one wants to hear that there might be something wrong with their baby. And we also have our young age, no family history and no other indicators working for us. Again, nothing is a guarantee but I have faith that we will have the child we are meant to have.

20 weeks

Back to more positive thoughts…

It’s crazy to think that in a few short months we’ll be adding to our family, forever changing our happy little dynamic. Will we have another little meatball that looks just like his father?  Or will Joe get the little girl he’s been dreaming about?  Ah, yes. Gender. We never find out.  For soooo many reasons: I love surprises, it prevents us from being buried in baby clothes before the baby is born, and I’m a HUGE procrastinator.   

Although the biggest benefit of not finding out gender didn’t even occur to me until I was at a baby shower (pregnant round #1) and my friend who was having a little boy was constantly being told how Baby Boy was going to ‘just like daddy’ For her ‘daddy’ was out of the picture so w ell meaning party guests who weren’t privy to this info were just opening a painful wound in a pregnant woman.  I didn’t realize until then how much I disliked people making plans for a baby before it’s even here. They will be how they will be, they are little people and will have their own personality and identity. Don’t write their life story before their life begins.

That being said, we are really just hoping for ‘healthy’ at this point. Another little boy would be awesome; M would have a playmate/scapegoat for life and we don’t have to buy any clothes really. At the same time a girl would be wonderful considering how much Joe wants “a little curly haired girl that looks just like my beautiful wife.”  (He does say the right things from time to time.)

Hello Gorgeous! What do you think? Boy or Girl?

Do I know? No. I have NO CLUE. This pregnancy has been so different from the last; more morning sickness, more acne, less weight gain, different (and healthier cravings).  I’m not sure if it’s the fact that I’m in a completely different place than I was when I was pregnant with M.  In less than three years, I’ve gone from single workin’ gal in my apartment to married with two kids buying a house.  

27 weeks

It’s incredibly scary and I’m praying that little dude will be able to handle all the changes too. I'm so very excited for this next child. But I'm also nervous for our happy family unit to change. I'm just going to cherish every moment we have left as a family of three.   

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